I completely understand and respect your sense of depression. Our nervous system as introverts are very similar. My work is most effective when I can emulate my client to match energies. This happens so automatically for me.
Had to pause, Im around minute 7 and when you said "like to pull my bracelet off and give it to someone and it makes their day" reminded me of the first time I ever met you, on stage no less, holding my B Flat Clarinet, in Newark Nj sitting next to Mariah Carey and my bestfriend at the time, Chanez Robinson, beat me for student speaker, she gave a speech, you came out, and gave her YOUR BRACELET!!! I was OD JEALOUS 🤣🤣 probably the first and last time I was ever envious of anyone! Okay.. back to watching... chilee that bestfriend of 20 year bit? Same. Recently too, but yea....
Yup!! Also, wow, didnt know it was one of your first! Yup! You hugged her, she was crying and you had a gold bracelet on took it off and gave it to her... let me tell you... we went back to school CHILEEEEEEE she could NOT LET IT GOOO 🤣🤣🤣 flashing it and everything! Hilarious!! "Video" was massive in Newark and when folks knew THATS who she got it from... she was already a favorite, it enhanced it lol
Very relatable need for coming home and speaking to yourself to affirm the ability to be safe in your body. I completely understand the need to settle down but also be comfortable where you are. I absolutely feel that way as I have had issues with various places I’ve moved and as a Taurus it is unsettling to have someone of sorting always looking to impose on your space. I get it. I like how you explained the need to get away from the hype of excitement and your need to just feel grounded and being willing to share a practice as a standard. It should not be that it’s a norm to always go and react without checking in with who you are and where you are. I enjoy and embrace meditation as a ritual that helps me to focus and honor that. There are so many who like to deal with people in a subtle plane and they function by uprooting your groundedness.
Finishing a first draft edit on a book of mantras and in listening to you, it encourages me to stay true to this practice because of the awareness I am gaining from it as I hope I can model when it’s time to share it. I also admire that you are able to baseline expectations to what is real for you because when you admit that you are working through things it allows you to be and make space for where you are. This is a model for the book I’m working on because it would be unreal for someone to expect that my practice is as automatic as the amount of work that has come avoid creating and experiencing it. Looking for the up ok’ing meditation.
My goodness that IS a huge compliment- to have your words attributed to Rumi, and yet it would be lovely when ppl bothered to look up and give credit where credit is due 🙏
Ohhh annndd lol I came back to say, when you said something about it can be a year or years when it comes to how folks view being by themselves or alone time in terms of having had it and now its time to be out! I have a similar mindset when it comes to missing people lol in that, it can take me YEARS to miss someone months upon months lol even those closest to me - buttt it would have to be that we havent texted, talked on the phone, facetimed, interacted on social media etc for me to even get to that point. If we do any of the sort and a week goes by... no... i have not missed you yet.
Thank you for being so real, honest and vulnerable. Hearing your experience in the music industry is always so sad—I’m deeply sorry you had to deal with such racism, sexism, narcissism, and trauma. I never got to major record label status, but my journey as an independent artist striving for a major deal left me with a sour taste in my mouth. I mostly experienced money-hungry individuals who took advantage of folks with a dream. But to add the layer of being a black woman in a white male dominated corporate domain must have been awful at times. It’s also interesting to hear your perspective on being an introverted famous singer dealing with fans. It was always my dream to be famous, but the older I get, the more I’m grateful that it never happened for my introverted ass. I’m glad you were able to put up your boundaries although sometimes the fans might not have understood that they subconsciously had expectations for you to always “be on”.
I really needed to watch this video India. My deepest gratitude to you for answering the call to make this video today. I was in the car feeling an overwhelming heaviness & began to cry it out, although I didn’t understand where it was coming from—then you randomly popped in my mind. Not even a few minutes after, you posted this video. 🥹 I’m currently in a place of transition myself and on the road quite a bit. What you expressed is so real. I don’t have a permanent home right now & the introvert in me can feel it. The place I’m staying during the week has no kitchen for me to cook & eat the way I wish to take care of my health. I’ve moved at least once a year since college & my nervous system wants me to feel stabilized and “steady”, as you put it. I’m so happy that you’re finally in a place where you’re feeling safe and steady, beloved. We all deserve a regulated nervous system, but with all that you’ve been through & with the light that you exude, you deserve it so much more. I’m praying that you continue to regulate your nervous system in this steady place. May your seasons of depression be over and May the right people find you that will genuinely love on you with no conditions. I just wanna give you a big long hug. So, here’s a hug India. 🫂 I can’t thank you enough for the being you are & all the beautiful vibrations you release into the world. 💗
Quite the opposite. i’’m so sorry for your hardships TOO. No one deserves peace more or less than anyone else!. And honestly, you made me remember, that even tho is HAS been a hard road … it’s REALLY a blessing in life to have been seen. And I wish the same fro you. You have so much talent.
I’m obsessed with ✌🏽 things…your glasses and your freckles. LOVE TO SEE THEM FRECKLES!
I’m so happy that i have this space to reflect but also to connect with you on a deeper love because you know i love you down and I’m a conversationalist when it comes to deep stuff so this is FEEDING me.(sorry for the run on sentence)
When you talked about things not aligning with your nature, I had to pause and sit for a second because there’s been so much through my life that didn’t align with my nature. The bulk of it was during my childhood with family and their ideals that didn’t align with my nature and the way that I think. I just couldn’t express those things as a child. I wasn’t even allowed to FEEL, let alone share my inner thoughts about things that didn’t align with me. Then i started counting out the things that don’t align with me and the more I did it, I realized i needed to write them down so that I could see a clear picture of myself. In doing this, it would help me create more boundaries and/or more efficient ones. People tend to be critical and hurtful with their words when you don’t align with their beliefs and it can present a feeling of rejection and not feeling worthy. Shoot you can feel like something is wrong with you and this helped me see that there isn’t anything wrong with me. This has been the biggest revelation of my 30’s. That I’m worthy and nothing is wrong with me. I’m not broken.
I know what it’s like to feel safe at home. Growing up the way i did, i couldn’t wait to move out. It was just an unhealthy family dynamic and living situation. A LOT of childhood trauma that I’m still working through. When i moved out of my apartment and spent my first night there alone, i finally felt like i could breathe after 20 years of walking in eggshells and full of anxiety in a place where i should feel safe, lived, respected and valued, but I wasn’t. I’m glad you are feeling all of those things in your new home. Also, this is a safe space. You don’t have to censor. If you want to vent, VENT. We got you. 😉🫂
When you said your mom always says look what you did when you’ve accomplished something and you said that you’ve never held yourself like this, it made me think of the many times in life i didn’t stop to affirm myself with words and applaud myself for a job well done. No matter how big or small, we all deserve it. And it’s something special about doing it to yourself that makes it more impactful. Loved seeing it.
Meditation is UP now. For paid subscribers. Hope .. hope you can find it. and freckles AND a little break out for sweat burning my cheek lol …. I really do feel you on ALL of this. It seems a lot of times .. our family of origin IS the first big lesson. In that we learn how to help and be OUTSELVES. I love THAT for you.
In my mind, you're my cool cousin that i could just call up or drop by to bring food and have a convo, India. Thank you for sharing about your experiences over the years - so much was said and I felt it all.
I will relate your introvert experience to my wife. She may find it helpful.
I also found parts of my current state in your story. I am using meditation to learn more about who I am.
Your story mentions meditation in a different way, but I take "one of" the messages from the spirit world, by way of your story, for me, is that reminder to meditate and journal more.
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I completely understand and respect your sense of depression. Our nervous system as introverts are very similar. My work is most effective when I can emulate my client to match energies. This happens so automatically for me.
Had to pause, Im around minute 7 and when you said "like to pull my bracelet off and give it to someone and it makes their day" reminded me of the first time I ever met you, on stage no less, holding my B Flat Clarinet, in Newark Nj sitting next to Mariah Carey and my bestfriend at the time, Chanez Robinson, beat me for student speaker, she gave a speech, you came out, and gave her YOUR BRACELET!!! I was OD JEALOUS 🤣🤣 probably the first and last time I was ever envious of anyone! Okay.. back to watching... chilee that bestfriend of 20 year bit? Same. Recently too, but yea....
WHAAAAAATT??? That was one of my FIRST public appearances … i guess i been giving my stuff away a LONG TIME Lol
Yup!! Also, wow, didnt know it was one of your first! Yup! You hugged her, she was crying and you had a gold bracelet on took it off and gave it to her... let me tell you... we went back to school CHILEEEEEEE she could NOT LET IT GOOO 🤣🤣🤣 flashing it and everything! Hilarious!! "Video" was massive in Newark and when folks knew THATS who she got it from... she was already a favorite, it enhanced it lol
I can relate to meditation saving me more times than I can count. Looking forward to the meditation. Nice specs 🤓🙌🏿
Very relatable need for coming home and speaking to yourself to affirm the ability to be safe in your body. I completely understand the need to settle down but also be comfortable where you are. I absolutely feel that way as I have had issues with various places I’ve moved and as a Taurus it is unsettling to have someone of sorting always looking to impose on your space. I get it. I like how you explained the need to get away from the hype of excitement and your need to just feel grounded and being willing to share a practice as a standard. It should not be that it’s a norm to always go and react without checking in with who you are and where you are. I enjoy and embrace meditation as a ritual that helps me to focus and honor that. There are so many who like to deal with people in a subtle plane and they function by uprooting your groundedness.
Finishing a first draft edit on a book of mantras and in listening to you, it encourages me to stay true to this practice because of the awareness I am gaining from it as I hope I can model when it’s time to share it. I also admire that you are able to baseline expectations to what is real for you because when you admit that you are working through things it allows you to be and make space for where you are. This is a model for the book I’m working on because it would be unreal for someone to expect that my practice is as automatic as the amount of work that has come avoid creating and experiencing it. Looking for the up ok’ing meditation.
My goodness that IS a huge compliment- to have your words attributed to Rumi, and yet it would be lovely when ppl bothered to look up and give credit where credit is due 🙏
Thank you so much for sharing. I just learned so much about myself through your story. Collective healing is so powerful. Love you! Xo
Ohhh annndd lol I came back to say, when you said something about it can be a year or years when it comes to how folks view being by themselves or alone time in terms of having had it and now its time to be out! I have a similar mindset when it comes to missing people lol in that, it can take me YEARS to miss someone months upon months lol even those closest to me - buttt it would have to be that we havent texted, talked on the phone, facetimed, interacted on social media etc for me to even get to that point. If we do any of the sort and a week goes by... no... i have not missed you yet.
The way I teared up when you started singing Worthy. That song has carried me through depression. 😭
Thank you for being so real, honest and vulnerable. Hearing your experience in the music industry is always so sad—I’m deeply sorry you had to deal with such racism, sexism, narcissism, and trauma. I never got to major record label status, but my journey as an independent artist striving for a major deal left me with a sour taste in my mouth. I mostly experienced money-hungry individuals who took advantage of folks with a dream. But to add the layer of being a black woman in a white male dominated corporate domain must have been awful at times. It’s also interesting to hear your perspective on being an introverted famous singer dealing with fans. It was always my dream to be famous, but the older I get, the more I’m grateful that it never happened for my introverted ass. I’m glad you were able to put up your boundaries although sometimes the fans might not have understood that they subconsciously had expectations for you to always “be on”.
I really needed to watch this video India. My deepest gratitude to you for answering the call to make this video today. I was in the car feeling an overwhelming heaviness & began to cry it out, although I didn’t understand where it was coming from—then you randomly popped in my mind. Not even a few minutes after, you posted this video. 🥹 I’m currently in a place of transition myself and on the road quite a bit. What you expressed is so real. I don’t have a permanent home right now & the introvert in me can feel it. The place I’m staying during the week has no kitchen for me to cook & eat the way I wish to take care of my health. I’ve moved at least once a year since college & my nervous system wants me to feel stabilized and “steady”, as you put it. I’m so happy that you’re finally in a place where you’re feeling safe and steady, beloved. We all deserve a regulated nervous system, but with all that you’ve been through & with the light that you exude, you deserve it so much more. I’m praying that you continue to regulate your nervous system in this steady place. May your seasons of depression be over and May the right people find you that will genuinely love on you with no conditions. I just wanna give you a big long hug. So, here’s a hug India. 🫂 I can’t thank you enough for the being you are & all the beautiful vibrations you release into the world. 💗
My comment is so long and all I can think of is, “Am I another loud American?” 🤣😩
Quite the opposite. i’’m so sorry for your hardships TOO. No one deserves peace more or less than anyone else!. And honestly, you made me remember, that even tho is HAS been a hard road … it’s REALLY a blessing in life to have been seen. And I wish the same fro you. You have so much talent.
Thank you for seeing me. 🥹💗
I SO APPRECIATE YOU 🙏 and your meditation was exactly the shimmer I needed and wanted😘 I adore you.
this was so thoughtful and helpful
I’m obsessed with ✌🏽 things…your glasses and your freckles. LOVE TO SEE THEM FRECKLES!
I’m so happy that i have this space to reflect but also to connect with you on a deeper love because you know i love you down and I’m a conversationalist when it comes to deep stuff so this is FEEDING me.(sorry for the run on sentence)
When you talked about things not aligning with your nature, I had to pause and sit for a second because there’s been so much through my life that didn’t align with my nature. The bulk of it was during my childhood with family and their ideals that didn’t align with my nature and the way that I think. I just couldn’t express those things as a child. I wasn’t even allowed to FEEL, let alone share my inner thoughts about things that didn’t align with me. Then i started counting out the things that don’t align with me and the more I did it, I realized i needed to write them down so that I could see a clear picture of myself. In doing this, it would help me create more boundaries and/or more efficient ones. People tend to be critical and hurtful with their words when you don’t align with their beliefs and it can present a feeling of rejection and not feeling worthy. Shoot you can feel like something is wrong with you and this helped me see that there isn’t anything wrong with me. This has been the biggest revelation of my 30’s. That I’m worthy and nothing is wrong with me. I’m not broken.
I know what it’s like to feel safe at home. Growing up the way i did, i couldn’t wait to move out. It was just an unhealthy family dynamic and living situation. A LOT of childhood trauma that I’m still working through. When i moved out of my apartment and spent my first night there alone, i finally felt like i could breathe after 20 years of walking in eggshells and full of anxiety in a place where i should feel safe, lived, respected and valued, but I wasn’t. I’m glad you are feeling all of those things in your new home. Also, this is a safe space. You don’t have to censor. If you want to vent, VENT. We got you. 😉🫂
When you said your mom always says look what you did when you’ve accomplished something and you said that you’ve never held yourself like this, it made me think of the many times in life i didn’t stop to affirm myself with words and applaud myself for a job well done. No matter how big or small, we all deserve it. And it’s something special about doing it to yourself that makes it more impactful. Loved seeing it.
I’m ready for meditation when you are. 🫶🏽
Meditation is UP now. For paid subscribers. Hope .. hope you can find it. and freckles AND a little break out for sweat burning my cheek lol …. I really do feel you on ALL of this. It seems a lot of times .. our family of origin IS the first big lesson. In that we learn how to help and be OUTSELVES. I love THAT for you.
In my mind, you're my cool cousin that i could just call up or drop by to bring food and have a convo, India. Thank you for sharing about your experiences over the years - so much was said and I felt it all.
Would love your support ❤️
Thank you.
I will relate your introvert experience to my wife. She may find it helpful.
I also found parts of my current state in your story. I am using meditation to learn more about who I am.
Your story mentions meditation in a different way, but I take "one of" the messages from the spirit world, by way of your story, for me, is that reminder to meditate and journal more.