FOR EVERYONE HERE IN THE COMMENT SECTION. THIS PERSON HAS BEEN CYBER STALING ME SINCE 2019. THE FACT THAT YOU ARE HEREI IN THIS SACRED SPACE IS UNACCEPTABLE. I WILL FIND A WAY TO REPORT YOU HERE. LEAVE ME ALONE. NNOOOWWWW!
We are so similar. I have so many thoughts about life’s direction, and choices that lead up to now. I have so many questions that I must ponder, and process. Love
Similarly, I started my asking practice, which is exactly what I called it, but TOTALLY DIFFERENT: Asking God For What I Want, What I Deserve. My friends for years would say "you have not because you ask not". And for years I refused to ask God for anything for myself because I said "he has other bigger things to worry about ill do it ill fix it". In realizing that some things God can only fix, i began my asking practice, and literally when i asked God for what I wanted after 30+ years of not... i got it alllll down to the number!!!! It fortified my strength n faith in Christ but also in myself!!
Whew! This reminded me to start back up but it also forces me to be a better person because who asks their father for gifts if they arent deserving of them? Amen?
But yes do these!! The bravery is astounding id neverrrr lmaooo ive toyed with the idea of sharing like this but..... idk.......... whew!
I mean lol … you dont have to say EVERYTHING, just share the parts you want to share. It’s not nearly as hard as your mind would have you believe … those mind stories are something. Ll
I love this!! I am also asking myself similar questions, especially now as I'm rebuilding my life in a totally different way while living with Long Covid. Building a life that nurtures my nervous system, finding new ways to find fulfillment. It's so soothing to hear you describe your thought process as well. I appreciate your vulnerability!
Yes, "building a life that nurtures my nervous system." I just recently (about a month ago) committed myself to doing that. I believe it is the right thing for me to do, but also it's hard! Challenging concepts of myself, challenging what I perceive society has told me I should do, challenging long held beliefs that I am not worthy unless I earn my place by giving all of myself away...
For sure. Especially when no one around you is on the same page and they are all connecting and celebrating around their food and drink addictions, even those closest to you. It takes some very deep self love. I’m finally to the point ( at 70 years) where I’m like fuck it , I’m doing this for me!♥️🙏🏾♥️
Love the essay recording and I empathize in real talk self talk. What is love and what is me? Something I find myself journaling more lately. I hope you see whales out near the islands🫶🏼🌼☀️
This recorded essay is amazing! I always prefer to listen to an author read their work while I follow along on the page.
I would like to normalize living in the not knowing. We are all students of Earth school, so we aren't supposed to have the answers to all those tough questions about ourselves. We learn by doing - sometimes it works out brilliantly, but more often it's messy when we try new things. Who knows, maybe just asking the questions is enough?
I know this intellectually LOL ~ but it’s like a marriage. You know it COULD end, but when it does … boy does it hurt. Making music, while I call it a career … was my passion and my calling and to watch myself loose that … it’s hard.
Asking the question IS SO HELPFUL … which is why imma keep asking.
I know what it’s like to lose a marriage. This August it will be four years since my husband died. There’s a part of me that died too, but then something else was born. I in no way meant to minimize your pain and confusion, quite the opposite. I know in my case, what made my loss so much worse was my expectation that I could return to my past self. I was angry and punitive with myself for my decreased capacity to be out and about in the world. Loss changes us, and we mourn who we used to be. I suppose I meant I’d like to normalize the grief experience even if it doesn’t make it less painful. Thank you for sharing your journey so vulnerably.
First off, I love that you're on Whidbey Island writing and resting.
Your vulnerability is beautiful. We need so much more of it in this world.
I'm a Highly Sensitive Person. Have you read Elaine Aaron's book? Very validating.
Getting covid for the first time in Sept '24 caused me to rest for the first time in my life (I'm 50). I still have long covid, but I'm learning so much.
I love sugar, and I kicked coffee, only to start drinking it again, but a few times a week rather than every day. It's EXTREMELY addicting, as everyone knows. It's a personal choice, but once I saw how horrible the detox process was for me, I knew I couldn't be a daily drinker again.
Blessings on your retreat.
P.S., I've moved 8 times since I moved to Hawaii in 2017. Truly hope to buy something soon.
OHHHHH YES I TOO am an HSP - and yes I’ve read Elaine’s book and watched the documentary too. And I saw myself so clearly, that I Laughed a lot of time.
I used this as a ChatGPT prompt. It helped me to really think about me!
Please ask me ten questions, one at a time, to uncover the beliefs I currently hold about myself and the world. After I answer all ten questions, 1. Roleplay as my higher self to analyze my responses and identify my top three limiting beliefs and my top three expansive beliefs. 2. Reflect on the true origins of these beliefs, helping me understand where they come from. 3. Assist me in reframing any limiting beliefs and suggest actionable steps I can take to transform them into empowering narratives. 4. Share a message of encouragement or wisdom that I need to hear right now.
I resonate with this. I used to think that I wanted a cabin deep in the woods, but something shifted recently — I just want to be near water, near the ocean. It’s much more closer to nature than I’ve ever felt. Introspection is very evident in 2025 —it’s expanding my limiting beliefs to just go for it, whatever “it” is. More so, for whatever reason, I feel like I resonate with you — and your nature, the nature of you. An affinity towards soul birds.
It was wonderful listening to you, not the least of which, was your voice itself, very soothing and your cadence..this comes at interesting time in my life...very thoughtful and thought provoking...what you talked about did resonate with me...I've been asking myself similar questions... listening, helped me add some focus to my questions, self honesty is very important, during the process of becoming...during the past, roughly, two years, I've gone through some dark nights of the soul, like you, spending some, needed time by myself...questioning assumptions about myself, on my journey to living more authenticly...before, I probably would not have found myself n a position to discover this and be interested...
for better or for worse, I’ve never moved anywhere for a romantic relationship. I certainly hope to find them while I was where I was. But never chose where I wanted to be based on that.
FOR EVERYONE HERE IN THE COMMENT SECTION. THIS PERSON HAS BEEN CYBER STALING ME SINCE 2019. THE FACT THAT YOU ARE HEREI IN THIS SACRED SPACE IS UNACCEPTABLE. I WILL FIND A WAY TO REPORT YOU HERE. LEAVE ME ALONE. NNOOOWWWW!
We are so similar. I have so many thoughts about life’s direction, and choices that lead up to now. I have so many questions that I must ponder, and process. Love
Loveee these recorded essays!!!
Similarly, I started my asking practice, which is exactly what I called it, but TOTALLY DIFFERENT: Asking God For What I Want, What I Deserve. My friends for years would say "you have not because you ask not". And for years I refused to ask God for anything for myself because I said "he has other bigger things to worry about ill do it ill fix it". In realizing that some things God can only fix, i began my asking practice, and literally when i asked God for what I wanted after 30+ years of not... i got it alllll down to the number!!!! It fortified my strength n faith in Christ but also in myself!!
Whew! This reminded me to start back up but it also forces me to be a better person because who asks their father for gifts if they arent deserving of them? Amen?
But yes do these!! The bravery is astounding id neverrrr lmaooo ive toyed with the idea of sharing like this but..... idk.......... whew!
Love you 🖤🙏🏾
I mean lol … you dont have to say EVERYTHING, just share the parts you want to share. It’s not nearly as hard as your mind would have you believe … those mind stories are something. Ll
Amen... whew just got out the theater seeing SINNERS incredible film!!!! Youuuuu willl absolutely love it
On my message board I wrote, “What is my dream life”, that was a couple of years ago, I’m still working on figuring it out.
When I think about what I thought I wanted, I questioned if I really wanted it or if it was because society says you should have it.
Knowing what you want is the difficult part.
I love this!! I am also asking myself similar questions, especially now as I'm rebuilding my life in a totally different way while living with Long Covid. Building a life that nurtures my nervous system, finding new ways to find fulfillment. It's so soothing to hear you describe your thought process as well. I appreciate your vulnerability!
Yes, "building a life that nurtures my nervous system." I just recently (about a month ago) committed myself to doing that. I believe it is the right thing for me to do, but also it's hard! Challenging concepts of myself, challenging what I perceive society has told me I should do, challenging long held beliefs that I am not worthy unless I earn my place by giving all of myself away...
Hey, check out Yahki Awakened for health issues. Good luck to you with everything going forward.
Much Love
Yes. I know about Yaki. And I know so much of what he teaches. DOING it, is the hard part.
For sure. Especially when no one around you is on the same page and they are all connecting and celebrating around their food and drink addictions, even those closest to you. It takes some very deep self love. I’m finally to the point ( at 70 years) where I’m like fuck it , I’m doing this for me!♥️🙏🏾♥️
Love the essay recording and I empathize in real talk self talk. What is love and what is me? Something I find myself journaling more lately. I hope you see whales out near the islands🫶🏼🌼☀️
I’m watching. I hope I see whales too.
Ahhhhhhhhhh this was a breath of fresh air!! Your voice IS a throat chakra activation, yes yes yes to more vocal essays!!! 🥹😍😍
This recorded essay is amazing! I always prefer to listen to an author read their work while I follow along on the page.
I would like to normalize living in the not knowing. We are all students of Earth school, so we aren't supposed to have the answers to all those tough questions about ourselves. We learn by doing - sometimes it works out brilliantly, but more often it's messy when we try new things. Who knows, maybe just asking the questions is enough?
I know this intellectually LOL ~ but it’s like a marriage. You know it COULD end, but when it does … boy does it hurt. Making music, while I call it a career … was my passion and my calling and to watch myself loose that … it’s hard.
Asking the question IS SO HELPFUL … which is why imma keep asking.
I know what it’s like to lose a marriage. This August it will be four years since my husband died. There’s a part of me that died too, but then something else was born. I in no way meant to minimize your pain and confusion, quite the opposite. I know in my case, what made my loss so much worse was my expectation that I could return to my past self. I was angry and punitive with myself for my decreased capacity to be out and about in the world. Loss changes us, and we mourn who we used to be. I suppose I meant I’d like to normalize the grief experience even if it doesn’t make it less painful. Thank you for sharing your journey so vulnerably.
I love everything about this essay, India.
First off, I love that you're on Whidbey Island writing and resting.
Your vulnerability is beautiful. We need so much more of it in this world.
I'm a Highly Sensitive Person. Have you read Elaine Aaron's book? Very validating.
Getting covid for the first time in Sept '24 caused me to rest for the first time in my life (I'm 50). I still have long covid, but I'm learning so much.
I love sugar, and I kicked coffee, only to start drinking it again, but a few times a week rather than every day. It's EXTREMELY addicting, as everyone knows. It's a personal choice, but once I saw how horrible the detox process was for me, I knew I couldn't be a daily drinker again.
Blessings on your retreat.
P.S., I've moved 8 times since I moved to Hawaii in 2017. Truly hope to buy something soon.
OHHHHH YES I TOO am an HSP - and yes I’ve read Elaine’s book and watched the documentary too. And I saw myself so clearly, that I Laughed a lot of time.
I did wonder if you and Alanis had connected on this, but that's a personal question...
I LOVED it! It feels like I know you even more now❤️❤️❤️
I used this as a ChatGPT prompt. It helped me to really think about me!
Please ask me ten questions, one at a time, to uncover the beliefs I currently hold about myself and the world. After I answer all ten questions, 1. Roleplay as my higher self to analyze my responses and identify my top three limiting beliefs and my top three expansive beliefs. 2. Reflect on the true origins of these beliefs, helping me understand where they come from. 3. Assist me in reframing any limiting beliefs and suggest actionable steps I can take to transform them into empowering narratives. 4. Share a message of encouragement or wisdom that I need to hear right now.
I just used this prompt last night. It was a great exercise. Thank you for sharing!
I resonate with this. I used to think that I wanted a cabin deep in the woods, but something shifted recently — I just want to be near water, near the ocean. It’s much more closer to nature than I’ve ever felt. Introspection is very evident in 2025 —it’s expanding my limiting beliefs to just go for it, whatever “it” is. More so, for whatever reason, I feel like I resonate with you — and your nature, the nature of you. An affinity towards soul birds.
Thank youuu for vocalizing ALL of this and sharing your truth 🙏🏿❤️🖤🤍💛🤎
An “asking practice”, yes!
It was wonderful listening to you, not the least of which, was your voice itself, very soothing and your cadence..this comes at interesting time in my life...very thoughtful and thought provoking...what you talked about did resonate with me...I've been asking myself similar questions... listening, helped me add some focus to my questions, self honesty is very important, during the process of becoming...during the past, roughly, two years, I've gone through some dark nights of the soul, like you, spending some, needed time by myself...questioning assumptions about myself, on my journey to living more authenticly...before, I probably would not have found myself n a position to discover this and be interested...
So I'm grateful, for your efforts here,
Thank you...
THANK YOUUUUUUU
Did you move back to Atlanta for a romantic relationship?
NOPE
I moved to Atlanta because it HOME. My family moved here in 1987. It’s not where I want to live but it made sense to touch home for a minute.
So that was the only reason you moved back. nice
for better or for worse, I’ve never moved anywhere for a romantic relationship. I certainly hope to find them while I was where I was. But never chose where I wanted to be based on that.
Your transparency is appreciated